after all you'll be capable to learn this as that is the place you discover relaxation when issues are getting dangerous.
i received't say something right here that might harm you
I promise. simply preserve studying.
I’m really sorry for a way issues turned in the course of the previous days. Possibly I used to be simply having a tough time accepting the truth that our relationship goes tough the previous weeks then I ended it and solely to learn these messages made it extra painful.
however sure, wala na ako magagawa how I made you’re feeling with the whole lot I mentioned.
however can I simply respect you for as soon as?
as a result of I by no means ignored the whole lot.
Kahit palagi ako mabilis mapagod, inaalalayan mo ako tuwing kasama mo ako. Lagi kang fearful na baka umatake vertigo ko at pinapagalitan mo ko pag ayaw ko magazine gamot o sinasabi ko na wala na ko gamot.
Yung palagi mo pagtitiis matulog sa upuan ng ospital para lang bantayan ako. kahit hindi komportable, kahit mahal ang pamasahe, kahit minsan ang init o minsan sobrang lamig, di ka nagbago. lagi mo pa rin hinahawakan yung kamay ko.
ilang obligation yung namiss mo dahil gusto mo pa ako samahan sa verify up, sa ospital, o saan man. palagi mo ginagawan ng paraan na magkaoras sakin kahit sobrang hectic ng clerkship. idlip na nga lang yung tulog mo, kasi gusto mo pag kasama mo ako, masaya ako at naaalagaan mo ako.
alam ko na hindi ka effectively off however in my case, I worth time greater than cash. cash will return. cash might be borrowed. however time? haha NO WAY. AND YOU SPENT SO MUCH TIME WITH ME. thanks. that’s one thing that I can by no means give again to you, however I hope you realized rather a lot from my errors and by no means discover a woman much like me… so that you received't get harm like this.
You spend even your final dime for me. akala mo hindi ko alam? alam ko. kaya lang naman ako naghehelp pabalik, kasi alam ko na kaya mo saidin lahat para lang sakin. kaya sana by no means mo isipin na kaya ko sinabi sa mother mo yun is for the aim na malaman lang nya at sumama tingin sayo. By no means ka humingi. Ako ang nagkusa kasi mahal kita at sabi ko nga possibly God despatched me to you that will help you sa areas ng life na kaya ko. I solely talked about as a result of sa outburst ng emotion when that woman advised me that you just deal with her like a princess. I used to be so jealous.
i do know a variety of women are into you din. you’re preferrred. I simply needed to inform these lies that I used to be courting a variety of males means higher than you as a result of as a woman going through THIS, you prolly know the way painful will or not it’s to haven’t any ego,no profession path and no goal in life and but learn one thing like that. These messages crashed me to my bones. You understand how weak I’m. How can I even date haha. and to be sincere, I solely dated 1 and somebody reconnected from the previous. no pther medical doctors concerned. I'm sorry for mendacity. i used to be so harm. I want I simply died that evening. You noticed how I cried. I used to be simply ready so that you can inform me that you’ll speak to the woman that's why i didn't block u that evening. I'm actually sorry, I lied. I used to be harm.
I lastly can attempt to transfer on in peace. I’m sorry that I disturbed each our 'peace'after that Jan 1 break up. It was higher like that than after I used Threads and opened up my life to the world. I hoped to encourage folks, ? pretend it til u make it (i'm no inspirational u know that), but it surely led us to this. the injury has been finished I do know however I actually wish to applogize.
Nobody in my household is mad at you. They don't even care. They simply let me go to the psychiatrist as a result of you’re a particular person they mentioned they couldn't hate as a result of they've seen the whole lot you probably did.
My medical doctors as effectively, they know nearly nothing besides from the truth that I’m heartbroken. They’ve a lot on their plate to be dangerous on you and in your profession. They have been additionally identical to you earlier than. Why would they hate someome simply due to a psych affected person.
I'm actually ending it right here. I do know I mentioned it couple of timed immediately however that is for actual now hehe.
I'm actually sorry, MJ. You deserve a more healthy and higher woman, I perceive you
Goodnight, my love.
